mental illness, postpartum psychosis, bipolar disorder, crazy, drug induced, Manic, bipolar, w/ psychotic features postpartum onset, PTSD, MAD!!!!!!!
To cope, sometimes I call it spiritual warfare. GASP! That does NOT happen in my country. Mental Illness happens in The United States of America, but spiritual warfare? In God's country? I feel sometimes we are led to believe spiritual warfare only happens in tribal countries across the sea. WHY? And maybe IT IS all a misconception. Maybe not...
Even as a social worker, working with severe mentally ill adults, I often questioned the fine line between mental illness and spiritual warfare. It seems as if when the mind looses control-it goes there. THERE-to spiritual things. Because of my story and my experience I know what THERE is and no matter how beautiful it may be at times, IT SUCKS! A beautifulmind?!?
I saw a bumper sticker that I liked. I usually do not like bumper stickers, just not my thing, but this particular saying caught my eye. "We are spiritual beings living in a physical world."
Shortly after having my daughter and being released from the psychiatric ward, I was still struggling. Relearning how to do simple task. Ones that were easy for me until this incident. I had to THINK EXTRA HARD ABOUT EVERYTHING...
I'm sure there are more, but for now that's plenty...
In my trial a dear friend of mine came over to help take care of me and she wrote this down.. I asked her to write it down so I would not forget it later.
"Lord, let me live my life in such a way that when my feet hit the ground in the morning Satan will shudder and say,
'Oh NO! She's awake!'"
Guess who's still awake. A BEAUTIFUL MIND-what a mess.
To cope, sometimes I call it spiritual warfare. GASP! That does NOT happen in my country. Mental Illness happens in The United States of America, but spiritual warfare? In God's country? I feel sometimes we are led to believe spiritual warfare only happens in tribal countries across the sea. WHY? And maybe IT IS all a misconception. Maybe not...
Even as a social worker, working with severe mentally ill adults, I often questioned the fine line between mental illness and spiritual warfare. It seems as if when the mind looses control-it goes there. THERE-to spiritual things. Because of my story and my experience I know what THERE is and no matter how beautiful it may be at times, IT SUCKS! A beautifulmind?!?
I saw a bumper sticker that I liked. I usually do not like bumper stickers, just not my thing, but this particular saying caught my eye. "We are spiritual beings living in a physical world."
Shortly after having my daughter and being released from the psychiatric ward, I was still struggling. Relearning how to do simple task. Ones that were easy for me until this incident. I had to THINK EXTRA HARD ABOUT EVERYTHING...
- Getting dressed, "does it match, look appropriate for the weather and appropriate for the outing?"
- Paying bills, "how do I write and check, what is the date, how do I write the date, and I sign my name where?"
- Being alone, "good momma's can take care of their babies all by themselves, You have been instructed you can't under any circumstance be left alone"
- Breast Feeding, "Keep pumping. Breast Milk is better than formula. It's better for you too. It helps you lose weight. Pump and dump...you can't give your milk to her, you are on medication....pump and dump, pump and dump, pump and dump."
- Sleep, "Just go to sleep, aren't you tired!? Just go to sleep. If it were only that easy."
- Learn to walk and not run....
- Do the laundry, "wish I didn't have such a dark cloud lingering over me, why does laundry seem so overwhelming, oh this must be what clinical depression feels like. really??"
I'm sure there are more, but for now that's plenty...
In my trial a dear friend of mine came over to help take care of me and she wrote this down.. I asked her to write it down so I would not forget it later.
"Lord, let me live my life in such a way that when my feet hit the ground in the morning Satan will shudder and say,
'Oh NO! She's awake!'"
Guess who's still awake. A BEAUTIFUL MIND-what a mess.